DeepaRaya 2008

Jokers trying to open the sparkling juice bottle

Classmates laughing at jokers

Damn bottle wouldn't open !

Laughing at jokers, again

Unopen

Mira, Shaz, Ain

Claudia, KT

First box

Second box

Wish you all the best in Australia
Don't forget us

Love,
4U

4U Single Club !

Di, KT, Shugi, JW, Dina

Start cooking Maggi

The last 3, visitors in our class

Rai, Sher, Fio, JW, Shugi, YL, Yee
(didn't realise I was in the middle till now)

President(right) and PornStar(left)

Ouch ? Should I be in pain ?

Pn. Hawa and Me

Cooking Maggi halfway

The other side of the class

What a mess !

J&W or JW ?

Random shot

Ta-Da !

A Blast !

OMG ! We were told that we can't have our party in class. WTH ? As Savvy and I were getting out of class to ask another teacher's permission, V said we are supposed to use the abandon class beside 4A. So, it kind of save our time finding teacher because all we need is just a class and we have one. Back to our best plan ever !

So, we move our "stuff" to the other class. Spend the first 2 period teaching Yee Rubic's Cube and she got it. Yay ! I'm a good teacher. Then, copied Yee's answer for CheMISERY Exam corrections. Haha ! During the third period which was ADDICTional MathsLUNATIC, Kit Ting started eating snacks. She just can't seem to wait, can't she ? Haha ! As usual la, Kit Ting ma. GG-fied ! If she can wait to eat, her name is not call Kit Ting anymore. Kit Ting, don't kill me for saying this. Bluek~

Next, CheMISERY ! Lots of us never bring our book because we thought there won't be class but I did and I finish my homework. Ahem ! Today, did a simple experiment, test for anions. Guess what ? Reagent bottle containing hydrochloric acid, HCl broke ! And this time, it wasn't me who broke laboratory things and it wasn't Kit Ting although she was right beside the place where the bottle fell. Its Yann Lin's fault this time. Haha ! She had to pay RM 3.50 for it. Careless~

Party party. Arranged the table and started cooking. Hmm~ No, I didn't not cook..yet ! I took lots of picture because today is Shermaine's last party with us. Sigh ! Class joker, pandai-pandai tau siapa la tried open the sparkling juice grandly but kind of fail then Lisha came and open it but nothing happen. Boo~ After eating donuts bought by Di and brownies bought using class money, we played, chatted and took even more pictures. Shouted quite alot. Well not really, its not shouting, its call speaking loudly right Kit Ting ?

Most of my darlings came to my class. Lost ghost ! =.= Just kidding, no offence. Then, darling finally came. Darling is always busy with her F1 stuff. Sigh ! No more spending time on me, I'm so sad dear. Anyway, darling brought 3 bottles of sparkling juice but I open 1, and Mich open 1.

Mich : Eh, I do this many times dy. I tak pernah gagal wan.
JW : Wah, I tak pernah leh !
Mich : *whispering to JW* damn malu leh if tak jadi
JW : Yalah !
KT : Faster ! so long oso haven open.

*Mich's bottle open and the cork flew to the wall at the back and juice was overflowing*

KT : Faster your turn ! You tak pernah sure gagal wan.
Fio : Tak pernah buka oso.
JW : Hoi ! Pernah la of coz, tak pernah like this open only.

*JW's bottle open and the cork flew to the wall at the back but no juice overflowed*

JW : Who say tak jadi ? Bluek~

*KT jealous cause Mich don't let her open and her first atempt failed, she was one of the joker earlier. Shh~*

Another fun part was, the bottle of Pepsi. Huey and Shi shaked that bloody bottle. Come on, its damn obvious you guys shake it already before asking me to open it. So, I though why not since we're already that crazy. I pointed the mouth of the bottle at them and open it ! WTH ? Instead of shooting out in a straight line, it kind of sprayed out like a sprinkle. Yup, I got wet ! But its nice and I didn't mind. Sticky and dirty Jia Wei ! Haha ! then I wiped it on KT. LOL !

Another was cooking Maggi. 3 packets of curry flavoured Maggi for Joy, Mich and teacher ! Water, spices, noodles, eggs, and chicken balls are the ingredients. Muahaha ! Nice not ?

Cleaning duty. Who created the mess, she has to clean it up. So, I hafta clean up 6 tables, 1 chair and the floor thanks to the Pepsi and Mich have to clean up the floor due to over spilling sparkling juice. All of us helped cleaned up the class.

Sher, Fio and me hear song at the back of the class. Sher brought lots of CD today. Borrowed one of Sher's Lee Hom CD and Fio returned my pendrive with Jay's song in it. Haha ! Sang in class with the others, without amplifier or microphone but its still fun. Especially Avril's song. Woohoo !

Then, the others came up with this game, who drink the fastest. I played once then back to hearing songs. OMG ! They finished 2 whole bottles equivalent to 3 litres. Cool !

Ops, I think I wrote too long. So sorry !

A Piece of Advice

Do not let the past hold you back,
You are the present,
And you are the future.

Forget about the past and move on,
Only by doing so,
Then will you find out what lies ahead installed for you.
Who knows ?
It might be better than the one you're currently holding on to.

Today was like the best day I had after exam. Nice. No lesson at all, no returning test papers by the teachers and no discussing test papers. Just relaxing~

Enter class today and discussed about the party we're having tomorrow. As usual, I started collecting class funds from my beloved classmates. I am so responsible. Fuiyoh~ But actually, not really because I'm collecting at the very last minute. Yeah~ So, I'm having 100+ bucks so we decided to order something. Pizza ? Domino ? Kit Ting disagreed because she want McD. LOL ! First plan was ala carte burger, cheaper and I'm very stingy. Saving my class money ! More like protecting the money. Haha !

Anyway, Celyn came up with the best idea ever. Cooking. Yes, we're cooking tomorrow in class with Celyn's portable gas stove and Burn's big pot ! Guess what we're cooking ? My best dish, Maggi mee ! Aren't we just simply unpredictable ? So, this was our second plan and we sticking to it despite having few problems. Anyway problems are solved :

We're suppose to have our party with the Form 3 in the canteen.
Talked to Pn. T and she allowed us to do it in our class and we promised to arrange our class and clean up for the camp tomorrow.

Are we actually allow to cook ? With fire ?
Its okay, close the door and SS all the way !

Yes ! Can't wait for tomorrow. Everyone pray that I don't burn down my class.

*pray*

There's this Reader's Digest talk which suppose to encourage us to read. Hmm ? I actually paid attention to the speaker this time. Cool ? But right, I only listen halfway and not through out the whole program. The last half of the program, I spend chit chatting and "explore" Shi's book. Ahem ! When got that part must show me ok ?

Finally, I settled all my Lampiran A3 ! I've got two to do which is Girls Guide's and Librarian's and today I had up the last one to Mrs. G. Yay ! I'm done for good. I better be or else..sigh ! Thanks to Yee for giving me her Interacts's Lampiran A3 example and format. Thanks~

After recess, we crapped alot. It wasn't actually crap because the topic we're talking about is quite important. Its a matter of life ! Exagerated a little but its true. Kit Ting snatch my rubberband and riben away from me because I got no story to tell her. Pity my riben got kidnapped by evil Ku. Anyway, I did told her some story since she insisted. We discussed about it and find way to solve it. We compared too ! Ahem !

Kit Ting ROFL today ! and I mean it literally. ROFL = Rolling on floor laughing ! I can't believe she laugh that hard over what she told us. What ? Can't tell, shh~ In this long period of discussion, there was a Pendatang Asing from 4N ! She hide from Mrs. K but end up being caught and lock up in jail. T___T Just joking, she manage to escape from teacher and continue playing and chatting with us. Ahem ! Wonder who is this pendatang asing...

*cough*

I was thinking in the train on the way home. Am I wrong for doing so ? Can I really do it ? Anyway, I was also thinking of a question I've been asking myself for a long time. Yet, till this very moment, I am unable to answer myself. Only time can tell me the answer to this question.

Half Solved

Finally ! School in Wednesday is over !! It means I don't have to think about those bastards and what they did anymore. However, teacher said she'll talk to my sister and the other Form 2 girls involved, so all I can do now is wait till my sister comes back, then only can I know what happened.

Anyway, I realise I got lots of pimples on my forehead ! OHMIGOD ! Suddenly got so many, must be due to over thinking and lack of sleeping ! Or is it, influence from my friends ? Whenever I'm with them, all I heard was, "AHH ! So many pimple", "Yer, so many pimple !". Now its my turn ! Pimples breakout. So sad, Fiona save me ! I'm coming your house. Muahaha !

Finally ! I got the book I want ! Twilight is in my hands. Kat, I kidnapped your book ! Muahaha ! But sadly, I won't be reading it yet because now I'm reading "Its a Kind of Magic". And Fiona, I'm not a slow reader. I was back in the past, but I don't think I am now ! I'll finish twilight in a week or less for you to see ! Hehe

Anyway, Physics result was horrible ! Horrible !! Its my worst result yet. But, as usual. Fake marks ! AGAIN !! Its the third time teacher is giving us fake marks. Sigh ! Although this fake marks will give me a better score, but somehow I'm not really happy with it. Because in my heart, I know I did not score so well. Its nothing to be proud of just like my pass two Physics result. Total marks is 132, so to get the average is our mark we obtain divided by 132 times 100%. But now, insted of divided by 132, we're dividing it by 110. Sadcase. Fake.

Today, as planned. I went to survey again. Actually I wasn't really surveying because surveying was done on Friday and today I went to get more information from Symphonia. It seems there are classes on Sunday. Much much more convinient than on weekdays. I might go for Sunday I think. Oh yeah, I'm going to attend guitar lesson. Yay ! Classical. Wee~ Can say so this is my own decision, because I made all my decision but I haven't tell my parents anything. I must go get a guitar soon. GG-fied. Mich are you getting yours soon ?

Came home and slept till 6pm. Fuiyoh chun right ? Guess what ? No supply of water so yes, I stink right now. Haven't taken my bath. Hoho ! Actually that's quite normal. GG-fied !

Thats all for today, before I forget, Friday we're having DeepaRaya Party as we do every year. This year will be a whole new thing. Yes ! I know it will because we're 4U'nians.

Didn't manage to post yesterday. SO busy. Busy playing maple. Half true, didn't really played maple the whole day. Only 2 hours plus if I'm not mistaken. But spend my day reading.
P/S : not text book or any book related to studies. I was reading my "Its a Kind of Magic" and I finished "Tangled Up in You" on Sunday. Yes, I've decided to buy Twilight because I can't seen to borrow any from my friends. Fully booked. Aww~

*cough*

Lets see. I talked to Fiona, Fiona Chai on Saturday. Not the one sitting next to me in class ar !! No idea why people tend to not get the Chai part. Ahem ! Ain, I'm talking about you now. Anyway, nice chatting with her. I told her everything that is happening in my life. Fiona you are really like a big sister to me ! Sayang you~

She adviced me and I kind of took it. No point doing what I intended to do, right ? We chat yesterday too. Hmm..I will keep this in mind, "you can't expect everyone to tell you the truth". Yea I know, lying is part of our (all of us) daily routine but to find out that someone is actually lying to me is kind of disappointing.

Besides, I kind of thought I was the only one. Apparently I wasn't. Kind of naive of me to think that way. No one cannot live without anyone. Its like : you die-people forget you-move on in life-get someone else in their life. Its a simply theory which I must fast understand and master. I must learn to be more open minded and to be not to naive. How can I be so naive ? Haven't I learn my lesson the last time ? Apparently not ! Maybe now is the right time to start learning from mistakes.

Though so, I cannot deny the fact that I was kind of disappointed to heard, I mean read what Fiona told me. Seriosuly, it was very disppointing because I expected things to happen the other way round. Typical me. Who the hell was I trying to kid ? And I have no right to be thinking that way because I'm nothing.

Anyway, thank you Fiona Chai dear for spending time with me, listening to me crap and wasting your credit. Thanks~

Level 80

Yeah ! Mapled for 2 hours plus. Alone T__T Darlings abandon me. One going genting, one more brother want to use. Am I right dear ?

Anyway, yeah I levelled my mage. Finally !! Level 80 now.

Everyone come join me play maple !

Maybe all I need is just a time off. I started reading, hoping that it could take my mind off few things. "Tangled Up in Your" is almost finished, I want Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Someone lend me please. I don't want to read the book I have now and I have plenty of book unread at home. No idea why.

I've got no mood for eating. I'd skipped Fridays dinner, and Saturday's breakfast and lunch. Yesterday I had to have dinner because uncle is paying. Mum and Dad force me to eat lunch just then. Sigh ! Eating had became a torture to me.

Maybe, I'll just play maple. Back then, playing maple always occupied most of my time and while I was playing, I stopped thinking. Well, who is up for mapling ? Anyone ?

What are you doing ?
What are you thinking ?
How are you feeling ?
This are some of the many questions present in my head.

Am I the only one suffering from all that had happened ?
Am I all alone now ?
Apparently, I am !
With no one to share my feelings with.

I'd tried not to think about it anymore,
But the thoughts just hit me randomly.
So, once again,
I turned to you, Bloggy !

Nothing matters now,
I finally came to understand.
Because "it" told me and proved to me lots of things,
Including the many questions I once had.
I finally had my questions answered.

Everything was a lie.
I shouldn't have believe in you.
It was a mistake from the very beginning,
Shall the night of 20th June 2008 be a lesson to me.
What can I do now ?

I came to understand,
The existance of "Promises are Not Meant to Broken".
The phrase wouldn't have came to this world,
If promises weren't broken in the first place.
And the point of making promises is so that,
You can break it.

There is something I'm proud with,
Something I haven't done.
And I'm glad I didn't.
Now, knowing nothing but the truth.
I will never ever do it.
It's better to left undone.

Today, feel very very gloomy. Sigh ! I've been sighing a lot today.

But I'm feeling very very proud today. This morning when I woke up. I manage to stop myself from sending out that sms which I have already type half way. No matter how provoking was that sms i received from you, I manage to not reply. I've made my mind up and nothing can change it. Well, it wasn't my intention to do so, however this was your decision and I'm helping you yet helping myself. Saving me from much problem.

Yes there is a thought of not doing this, because I know that if I continue doing so, I'll loose another friend which I was once close to. Loosing a friend is something I cannot stand. But what are the choices I have ? I'm doing this for everyone's sake.

Anyway, I decided not to think about the big problem occured yesterday because no point thinking about it now. Because no matter how much I think about it, it cannot be solved just like that. Because, its not up to me anymore. Its in teacher's hand. Sigh !

Nothing matters now, because the future was never once predictable. No point thinking of what will happen in the future because guesses might be wrong.



The future was never once predictable,
What lies ahead in our life,
Remains as a mystery.

No one can decide on others future,
Our own future simply lies in our own hands,
It wasn't destined.

Its my fourth post today. Alot had happen today. I'm lost, I'm confused and I'm afraid. But 1 thing is for sure. I'll fend my sister to the very end no matter what it takes. While typing this post, I'm sad to say that I finally broke down. It's hard to stand all these crap, I just cannot hold my tears back anymore. I feel that I'm such a useless person, I can't do anything but just provide comfort. I'm not just good enough. I can't even protect the one I love.

But, what I actually wanted to say in this post is that, thanks to all my friends that have supported me through out the day. Without you guys, I wouldn't last that long, that is up until now.

During the period at which I finally broke down, a friend have been there for me. Cheering me up, advising me, and accompanying me. Look at the time ! Its late (early in the morning) yet he is still here by my side. I'm touched and I'm really very thankful to you, Yip Siong. Although, we might not have been as close as we used to be but you're here for me when I really needed someone. Someone to hear my thoughts, and my cries. Without you, the thought of giving up might have conquered me. I'd really want to thank you from the very bottom of my heart.

Thank you, Yip Siong !

Another Day Another Argument

What happen to my entire week ? I can't remember any other thing other then arguing. I've been arguing the entire week with different people. I'm sick of this. I want all this arguing to stop. I'm just too tired and sick of arguing.

It started last Saturday up till today. Sigh ! Why the hell is all this happening ? Last Saturday was suppose to be a happy day for me, but the big argument spoil the entire day. From 10.30 am till late night. As if it couldn't get any worst, get to school on Monday and heard more idiot crap. Made me pissed off even more.

On Tuesday, argued AGAIN ! With a different person though. But we argued about the same problem happened on Saturday. I admit that, I created this argument that happened on Tuesday. I admit I was wrong, I'm so sorry I apologise. But do you have to make things even worst ? I already apologise for God's sake ! I admit I was wrong on Saturday, I was just too damn angry. And I'm sorry that I sounded that I'm angry with you, or accusing you of doing something you didn't. I apologised, what else do you want from me ?

On Wednesday, there had been a misunderstand between us. On that day, we might not argue but we kind of alomost did. How come we tend to argue a lot ? Even over stupid little things like what happen on this day. You'd think I like arguing ? Hell no ! Yes, a little arguing is good in every relationship, including friendship. But do we have to argue that often ?

On Thursday, almost peaceful, a little rough at the beginning. Thanks God, there was someone else by me. This someone kind of keep from arguing again. Kind of balanced my emotion, laughing here and angrying there. End up with nothing but peace. Good day Thursday.

On Friday, (today) started the day normally. Up until a point where, 2 of my friends came up to me and break me some idiotic news. WTH ! I was damn pissed off. I just cannot bare with the lies revolved around this big scandal. How can one be such a selfish guy and would give in anything to save their own life ? Harming a poor little girl, innocent little girl. How can you guys be so mean ? Just now, I started Bombing a guy involved.
Another friend of mine, fending the guys. How do you expect me to choose ? Now my loved one is involved and I trust she won't do such thing 100%. Damn the person that blast her name out. I hate all guys !!
Then, another came and said something to me. At first, I didn't realise what it meant. But the longer I think about it, I came to realise what that sms containing 3 words meant. If this is the decision you had come up with, its fine with me. I've got nothing to lose. Please do remember that you're the one who said this. I'll try my best to fulfill your decision. Ended 21.47 pm / 24.10.08

From today on, I'll not be soft-hearted because I realise that, by being so, I'm practically inviting others to hurt me. But all these arguments and misunderstands, cost me lots of friends. How many more am I willing to lose ? Guess you guys aren't a true friend. I promised myself I will never sulk over this cause I know there is someone out there that actually cares.

A Tale of Five Bastards

I'm freaking pissed right now. I'm not sure what had happen. It just pop up out of a sudden without a warning. Today should be a happy day because its Everybody's Day ! P/S : Everybody's Day only involve CBNers. If your not a CBNer then get the hell out and stay away from CBN and Bukit Nanas !

OMG ! I don't know how to express how I feel right now. All I know is I want to DAMN the 5 MBSSKL boys, Form 2 boys. Shit man ! I'm damn pissed right now, I can't think of proper language to use. Forgive me for my poor language.

I just couldn't believe that they can do such thing. Be responsible or your own act. But instead, they put the blame on others. I can't think right now. My thoughts are a mess ! I'm filled with anger !

I'll fend for the one I love till the very end no matter what. You're not and will never be alone ! I'm here as you're best friend and a sis.

"Em sai keng, Jia Wei hai tai teng", said Huey

Pathetic Bastards

To the 5 Form 2 BASTARDS of MBSSKL,

How the hell can you do such thing and accuse others ? And you dare call yourselves as guys ?! Why ?! Dare to do don't dare to take responsibility ? Face me ! Anytime as you wish !
And P/S : WAI CHUN I can't believe you actually let this happen. Make sure you pick up the call when I call you.

SS Announcement

I officially declare 说好的幸福呢 to be MY Song.

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散落了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呢.
而你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了倦了我哭了.
離开时的不快乐.
你用卡片手写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呢
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呢
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

I Can Do It

How do I feel right now ? I'm feeling very HAPPY ! For the first time in my life I think I'm exposing my exam scores. I really don't give a damn about what others might think. They can say that I'm bragging or lan ci-ing but I'd really don't care right now. I'm simply proud of myself.

I'm proud to say that I got 87% for my Principle of Accounts paper ! OMG ! I'm seriously very happy about this. It might not be that good if compare to what the other Accounts student might get. But do I have to compare my result with the others ? I don't think so. As long as I'm happy with my result and I know that I gave in everything during the paper, the score is already more then enough to me.

I had improve alot, ALOT compare to the last paper that I took during the Mid Term exam. I'm not going to say what I got for my Mid Term Exam but trust me, its horrible. Actually I already knew what I got for my Paper 2, even back then, I was so happy, I kind of screeched in the Teacher's Room. But, today I officially got back my result, including Paper 1.

Now I can't wait for my dad to get back. I'll present him with my result, Accounts result and prove him wrong. I do understand Accounts and I can actually answer the questions. Apparently, he asked me to drop it since the Mid Term's result, but I myself insisted to continue till the day before exam this time. YES ! I had prove my dad wrong !

Feeling so empty inside,
Yet, feeling happy for what had happened.
Its better this way.

I know its a great lost,
Its something that no one can replace,
But I know I can't be selfish.

I'm afraid of losing a friend,
Because to me,
You're a good friend.

Good friends don't just appear in front of us.
Good friends are hard to find.
Therefore, I do treasure our friendship.

All I want to say is,
You'll always be my friends.
Do you feel the same way ?

我不要没有你这个好朋友 !

Just Ordinary

Today, we get to see our ADDICTional MathLUNATICS, and BioDOPY. I'm actually kind of satisfied with my result, because if I'm not, my darlings won't want to talk to me anymore.
P/S : Darling don't say you don't want to talk to me, it hurts me deeply.
As for BioDOPY, teacher haven't mark my essay part so I don't have my mark yet. Maybe tomorrow.

Anyway, got back English paper. Happy surely happy, but that's only paper 2. OMG ! First time in my life I actually got higher that my neighbour in class. Ahem ! Haven't see paper 1 result, cannot be too happy. Paper 1 totally burned. Who cares ? What's done is done !

Guess what ? Two laptops, in front of teacher, and in class. ONLINING ! My friends really damn cool, especially Joy. She's busy playing some word game when teacher is talking in front ! We were helping her too. Haha ! So cool having friends joining F1 in class. Camera and laptops are allowed !

Sigh ! Today is duty day again. So bored. afetr doing my duty, I read my book "Tangled Up In You" awhile then I felt really tired. So I kind of sleep in the library from 2.30pm to 3pm. Hey ! At least I finished my duty first.

Went back at 3.30pm again. Reached Bukit Jalil around 4.25pm. Guess what ? I did something I wanted to do for a long time ! I walked home, all the way home. Its took me about 30 minutes I think but I wasn't tired. Thanks to the weather, not hot, not sunny today. So, why not ?

Came home, I saw dears sms. Dear ask me play maple. Haha ! So, I log in and played with her which was Kat. We three, me, Kat, and Shi played around an hour. After that, I felt kind of bored. So, I log out and started blogging. Sorry dears !

I'm alright today ! Fully healed !

Toward Recovery

Today was so sick. Spend the whole day in school crapping and laughing. But pity Joy with her babies. Hehe..Today I've got back ADDICTional MathLUNATICS and CheMISERY marks. Apparently, both subject's result also drop but what can I expect right ? Its the end term, how am I suppose to compare them to the test before this.

Anyway, I helped Joy to change her sandpaper. Haha ! Quite fun ripping off used sandpaper from Their name tags and replace them with a new one. Haha ! Crapped and laugh. Heard from the kid next door, she say she can hear me laughing ! LOL ! Got that loud not ? GG-fied

Sigh ! Today got duty ar ! Till 3.30pm, time passes really slowly in the library. And tomorrow have to duty again. T__T

Today. I'm feeling much better ! Except a little sulky now. Otherwise, I'm fine. I think I won't be emo-ing anymore.

Dear Bloggy,

Hmm..How am I feeling today ?

Not much improvement I shall admit that getting back to school crapping had really done much to distract me from drowning in my thoughts. That was good. My thoughts are contagious.

Well, after school, when I was alone. I started thinking again. Sigh ! What the hell was I thinking, I myself seriously have no idea. But something just kind of pop up in my mind :

Everything is useless and worthless,
Unless you put your heart into what ever you are doing.
Only then, will you achieve what you desire.

Bloggy ! Keeping myself busy do works ! Just then while I was doing Chemistry homework, I mind did not wander. There is one thing on my mind. I'm so afraid that it might be true. I couldn't bare to see the truth. I feel very bad about this. Sigh !

Anyway, I think overall I'm getting better. Grats me Bloggy !

Back To School

Amplifier alert ! That's right, first and second period was moral. As usual, after exam we're more free then it has already been than before. Me and Kit Ting kind of "chat" but I think it sounded more like shouting. Hehe..sometimes we kind of get too emotional over certain topics and forgot to control our volume. Sorry.

Spend the rest of our day chatting and gossiping. Yawns ! School was so boring. But at least, we get to stay in class and relax. Pity Form 3 student because they have to do gotong-royong and Form 5 students having gerak gempur.

Physics was far more relax then usual. Lessons are as usual but this time, non of us have the mood. Tell you something. The last two table on the right hand side of the lab, they aren't paying any attention. Though so, the "girl" sitting fourth from the last table towards the door often explode answer out. SEMANGAT !
P/S : I'm the third from the door, which means Semangat girl is next to me.

Well, that was what happened in school. Oh yeah, during English period which was before PhySICKS, Medina said something :

Dina : Jia Wei I want to ask you somthing. I wanted to ask you along time ago.
Celyn : Ask her la.
Dina : Jia Wei, are you in love ? Are you crying because of this ?

*Jia Wei stares at her blankly then moved her staze toward Celyn and Fiona*

Jia Wei : Since when ?
Dina : I read somewhere in your blog, you were crying over something.
Jia Wei : Oh ! I was watching a drama la dear ! I was never in love.
Dina : Jia Wei, I hate you. I don't want to talk to you again.

*Dina turns away*
*Dina talked to me again*

Anyway, dear if I was in love, surely I'll let you know. Dun worry, I'm not lucky to be in love.

Missing the Sun

The cloud was dark,
And it rained again,
When will the Sun finally shines again ?

Dear Bloggy,

I now realise I'm very lonely. Whenever I'm down or sad, I don't know who I should turn to. I realise that I've got no one to share it with me. Yes, I might seem like I've got lots of friends by me but I just don't want them to be trouble by my problems. So, I turn to you Bloggy. Sigh !

Don't know why, but I'm feeling very very emotional today. I really don't know why. Today is Sunday, yet I'm feeling lonely. While watching Moonlight Resonance, usually I won't cry over little things especially in movie or drama. But today, the littlest thing that happen in the drama managed to make me cry. Not only once, but quite a few times. What's wrong ?

Maybe its the loneliness. I'm not sure. But I'll be fine Bloggy. I've got my baby, Blackie by my side. Just then while I was down, he jump on me and stayed by my side. Maybe he is the only one I really need. He is all I need, other than him, Jia Wei stands alone !

I think that is all about how I feel right now, I've got to go bath. Maybe I'll feel better after that. Nice cold water should do the trick. I've been boiling Moonlight Resonance the whole day and I'll continue again later. Bro's out so have to wait till he gets back. Wish I could cry like I did when I was watching Money No Enough 2.

*Wishing*

Bye bye Bloggy~

Words

Words are one of the most deadly weapon exist.
Words can not only destroy oneself and the others.
Words can also bring much pain and hurt feelings.
Words is something you shouldn't play with.
Words are not meant to be spoken carelessly.

So, put a little effort in before saying anything.
Because once it had been said, it cannot be taken back.
When that happens, there is no point regretting.
Because as said, what's done is done.

Without Fun

Well, yesterday end up with only 5 of us singing K and 2 left after that. So, yet again didn't manage to go for rollerblade. How come rollerblade's plan always fail ? This is seriously not the first time nor the second time. The failed plans are countless.

I was suppose to meet Shireen at 10am at HangTuah but guess what ? She overslept =.= Silent your phone some more la, call you also you cannot wake up. Thanks God I did not left the house yet, so I waited till Shireen was ready then I only I leave the house, if not, I'll have to wait at Hang Tuah for her for 30 minutes. As usual, I reached there first. OMG ! Saw something damn disgusting ! Blue pants and pink leggings ? Furry slipper ? ( Did she forgot to change her slippers after she woke up ? ) No more comment on that, I just feel disgusted to even talk about that.

Not long after, Shireen arrived. While walking to Times Square, she told me something. I was damn bloody pissed off, I was speechless and I just went blank. The only thought in my mind was to sound that fella. How come there has to something to piss us off ? What have we done or what have I done to deserve this ? Pathetic. Couldn't you people care for what others might felt ? Apparently, this leads me to conclude that all ***'s guys are heartless and cold-blooded.

This time Sing-K at Red Box. The first thing I did when I enter the karaoke room was shout like I just don't care. I was damn pissed and emo, I can't stand it anymore. Grabbed the microphone and shouted ! That felt really good. So started singing then after awhile, Yann Lin arrived. Haha ! Very early orh !

Sher singing
Shi playing with her phone (don't know what she do)
Me snaping them !

Us in Body Glove
~its too dark !

Promoting Body glove =.=

Cha0ticLove S2

After that, at 3pm + Fiona had to go. Sigh ! Fiona, why always must leave that early ? Where the fun ? Since Yann Lin doesn't want to skate, that leaves us with 3. What the point of going rollerblade when there is only 3 of us ? So, plan failed. As usual. Lepak-ed around with Yann Lin in Times Square awhile cause she leaving us too. Walk around, helped fiona to buy a present. PRESENT FOR *** ! Damn chun right ? Even I haven done that before ! Fiona terus maju orh !

Shermaine and Shireen wanted to watch movie. But I just don't have the mood. All I wanted was to go home ! What's the point of watching a movie when I know I won't enjoy it ? Anyway, thay tolerate me. We went home around 4pm +.

Dad wans't home for dinner, so left with Mum, bro, sis, and me. Went to eat Chicken rice nearby my house. WTH ! I know I haven been there for quite sometime but can the restaurant really change that much ? Air-conditioned, glass doors, and waiter with PDA !! OMG ! They are taking orders with PDA ! WTH ! Chicken rice really that big business ? Shocking !

After dinner, went home and bath. Then boiled drama "Moonlight Resonance" till 1.30am. I'm continuing today, but have to wait till bro and sis wake up. Episode 20 now I think.

I should have known.
But its okay.
There are always "the next time".
Hope I'll have lots of fun today.

End !

At long last, exams are over. Phew~ thats a relieve !

Anyway, Accounts paper wasn't that hard. Thats a good news right ? GG-fied. I kind of screwed paper 2 but i've got paper 1 to back me up. No regrets, my choice, my decision.

Today was my last day of exam, but some of us still have the last paper on Monday. Gambate orh~ Eh eh..means monday can play in class ! Fuiyoh~ Today actually planning to go hang around Bukit bintang and watch movie somewhere. Pavilion ? But, SOMEONE release aeroplane.

Ahem ! Ahem !

*cough*

*cough*

Anyway, since like this, we decided not to go anymore. No point going anyway, so came home early and online ! Its been so long since i come home right after school and online like i've got all the time in the world.

OMG can't believe it, Form 4 had almost come to an end. Time do passes by fast, and without us realising. Today, as i was doing Accounts Paper 2 in the first floor of Form 3 block, i heard screams and loud voices from the hall. Obviously, Geography paper had over. The scene of me finishing my last paper during PMR was still fresh in my mind, and now there i was sitting for my last paper for Form 4 this year. A year had passed by, and the next is just ahead. Form 5 ? I'm not ready for that, I'm not ready to face such future. But do i have a choice ? Apparently not.

Next good news, since exams are over, i bet there won't be homework anymore unless some special subjects. Plus tuition had came to an end to, last day was yesterday for 2008 session. So, i don't have to go to tuition anymore. Wee~ Conclucion, my daily routine will now be :

Wake up >> Go school >> Play >> Go home >> Play >> Sleep

Isn't that just nice ? Not to forget, hanging out with my friends. I think thats all for now, might blog again later. I'm going to get active blogging again, so do drop by more often.

PS : eating chocolate while typing this post ^^

Rain and Thunder

The sky was dark, the wind was strong. Yet, I continued being where I was. Alone. In the dark where I sit, a flash of lightning was seen. Scary as it was, I calmed myself down. Slowly, i withdraw back to myself, hugging my legs in order to provide myself with much comfort. I was alone, unprotected and insecure. As the night passes by, I realise i had and always will be alone. With no one by my side, no one to be there for me when I'm in need. Without realising, tears flow unwillingly down my cheeks. I rubbed it off.

Lost in my own thought, drown by my tears. Thinking that it would better if I have someone who cares for me and love me more than I love myself. During the thunder, an open arm will always be there for me. For me to burry my face, for me to feel secure. Being in ones arm, where I belong. Comfort by his warmth, protected by him and feeling secure in his arms. I know that when that happens, tears will flow unwillingly but it isn't because I'm afraid or scared of loneliness. Tears of Joy !

No matter how much i long for this to happen, dreams never come true. I understand that very well. Yet, a girl can dream, couldn't she ?

2 Days To Go (Desperate)

Can't believe its been almost 3 weeks since i started studying and now it has almost came to an end. As stated above, 2 more days to go. Now I'm left with Moral and Accounts which is tomorrow and Friday respectively. Ahem !

Anyway, since its Moral tomorrow, i've decided to spend a little time onlining. Haha ! Guess what ? I screwed my Chemistry paper today ! Wee~ I'm trying to forget about my silly mistake and carelessness but during paper 1, when the same graph appear, I started thinking about it again. Till i've got no more mood. Sigh !

Oh yeah, Accounts ! Everyone taking Accounts must beri tunjuk ajar to me tomorrow ! xD After Moral paper, half day no paper to take. Aww~ Half the class is free tomorrow except the miserable 10 of us taking Accounts >.<

Hmm..on Friday, lunch anyone ? I know it sound weird but everyone is busy so that's all i could think of. >.<

I guess that's all for today.

Oh ya, before i forgot. Congratulation to my Leng Chai for successfully getting AFS scholarship to Japan for 2 weeks ! I envy you a lot dear~ Haha ! I'm applying again next year, who else is interested to join me ? xD

GAMBATE !

5 Days To Go...

A week had past, yet another week of pure misery a waits me. T___T At which after, I'll play as much as possible. By the way~

Well, there 5 days more to be exact :

Monday : PhySICKS
Tuesday : BioDOPY
Wednesday : CheMISERY
Thursday : Moral
Friday : Accounts T.T

SIGH ! I've been thinking this since the week before exam. Should I be taking Accounts ? Should I ? Must I ? Why am I learning Accounts in the first place ? OMG ! these questions hurts my mind ! Anyway, I've decided that I'll be taking it since darlingsss said that I should and to see where I stand. True though, after these paper, I'll decide if i'm going to take it for SPM ! Result ?! Couldn't imagine~

Oh yeah, I went on a DATE. Ops..i mean DATES. TWICE !! A ONE-ON-ONE DATE TWICE THIS WEEK ! >.<>spend almost 5 hours plus with my date. Ahem ! Cool huh ? 5 hours in McD face to face. I'm so happy thinking about it.

Today was the second date. We went McD again (P/S : there is more privacy in McD and McD is quiet enough..shh..) for about 2 hours 15 minutes. Hehe..then we went to tuition together, side by side. Aww..so sweet right ? Went for Accounts in Kasturi and we sat side by side ! Class ended at 5pm so we went to lepak around for about an hour. First, from Petaling Street to Kotaraya, then from Kotaraya back to Petaling Street. Only me and my date, no other. Next, we went to KFC four another 30 minute of private dating ! Wee~

Can't wait for our next date. I'm sorry I'm not free next Monday because have to study BioDOPY ! So, next Tuesday right ? Dear, until what time ? I need to know or else I'll go home with you ! xD So, next Tuesday. CAN'T WAIT !! (*excited*)

Hehe..so what do you think about my date ? Isn't my date sweet ? >.<>

My Date = Shireen !

Anyone got fooled ? Haha..

Cha0ticLove meets Physics

Well, as i was revising Physics last Monday, a random idea just kind of pop into my head. So, these are my random ideas (PS i spelled wrongly for "explain") which i like to call them, When Cha0ticLove meets Physics !

"I LOVE YOU" - No law of Physics can explain it.